thoughts for a Friday

What an exciting title, haha!  Went to playgroup this morning at Sarah's house.  After a few initial whines and hesitation Sam did great and had fun!  phewww!  I actually came home with a sigh of relief instead of feeling emotionally drained!   I swear I can never tell how each adventure out of the house is going to be with him.  I guess it depends on how he is feeling and if anything or anyone triggers his sensories or if his EE or reflux is bothering him. Who knows!

This morning we started wheat foods with him.   Only gave him a few cheerios and a few cinammon graham sticks.   He was fine until after naptime.  He was drinking his formula and all of a sudden gagged and puked ALOT in the living room.   We cleaned that up, Steve used the steam cleaner, gave him applesauce shortly after that and Sam vomited again within a few mins.  Poor Steve dragged the steam cleaner out again!  Thank god for that thing!  Otherwise our living room carpet would be a big MESS and SMELL like PUKE!!!  We didn't give him much else to eat after that.  He was not in any pain before or after so we were scratching our heads on that.  Could the wheat have given him a reaction already?  Don't know but I wrote everything down, that's for sure!  

He just woke up at about 10:00p, was crying and gagging but that was it.   Please let him sleep through the rest of the night!

Tomorrow we are going to the EE support group mtg. at Children's hospital. So thankful to have my friends Sarah and Stefanie coming over to watch Sam.   We really want to be able to focus on the speaker at the meeting and talk with the other parents there.   Hope Sam does good with his babysitters.  :-)

I was an emotional mess yesterday and cried a few times while I was driving.  I kept telling myself that who was I kidding putting on my strong front face all the time?  Half of the time I don't know whether I'm coming or going and how I get up every morning!   But I know I do it for Sam.   Deep down though I am not taking care of myself that well.  I've been doing alot of emotional eating again, feeling very anxious, tired ALOT and just not happy or very cranky!   I need to make some serious changes!

going to check on him now as I just heard a whine.  Hope he is ok.  He was sitting up and crying again but then laid back down.  uggh!   Not sure what is going on but don't like it!!   Time for bed for me, hopefully!